Self-pity – create the true self, emotional stage, not your mind, don’t get struck, solve it, feeling. It is un-describable only when you are in that state then you will understand, somehow you are caught in that situation where you looked around, you seem to be the only victim. That’s where all the funny why come about.
Allow yourself to shout out loud and cry, and soon when you come to be more accepting, life goes on, move around, don’t confine yourself at home, explore go out, meet people, you will feel a lot better. You will see the world; you are not alone. Smile, be strong, move on.